Why my mind demands to engulf itself at this moment, I will never know.
My feelings consist of every color on the rainbow.
While I am well aware that I am simply experiencing what most adults like to call, “teen angst”,
I’d like to point out that I have gone for seventeen years without thanks.
I don’t mean to say I am unappreciated,
But that I have gone too long gated.
Held down by what my counterparts expect of me
I’ve been discredited for who I truly am, turning into nobody.
Let’s be real here, I am a by-product of the greatest gift in human history,
But for some reason the One who created us is seen as a mystery.
God has turned the tables of my mind
Reminding me that these thoughts are unrefined.
If I am indeed seen as a nobody,
I must be set free from this misery.
But oh! But ah!
The Creator of All once again reminds me that I must not withdraw.
He has given me a calling.
So why am I stalling?
He conquered my shame
And filled my world with grace.
I have come to the final conclusion that there is nothing holding me back but me.
I restrain myself from experiencing this glee.
But no longer.
I have gained a new hunger.
Never again will I hold I down
Because God has let my flesh drown.
I have been made new by the One the Only Yahweh,
Letting my past sins & shame decay.
The enemy no longer grips onto me
For the Lord has made His decree.
Romans One – Sixteen